Far away

Being far away from things/people you love can sometimes be hard. This weekend I have been thinking about home a lot. I miss being home, but I am not home sick(maybe a little).
I was talking to some of my brothers and sisters the other day and it hit me how much I wish you could send really hugs through text message. I was talking to them about the foster kids that are living with them right now. We were talking about how the kids are going to be there for Christmas this year. And how it is going to be way different then other years. And it is going to be, the kids are going to be there, I won't be around for holidays this year. So yeah different is the right word to use.
But that wasn't the hard part. I was asking 2 of my brothers how they were doing with the idea of having the kids there for Christmas. And one of my brothers said he didn't want them there and that he just wanted to run away. I just wanted to be there to give him a huge hug and take him away from the pain he is feeling. I have realized that having foster kids living with them has changed life A LOT! And I have seen some of the changes that have been made. And it is even hard for me to see some of the changes done. My brothers always tell me, "you don't know how it is. You don't have to live here with them." And that is very true, I don't live there. But I have visited and seen how it is. And I know how it is to have your world turned upside down. And it isn't fun at all. Most the time it hurts a lot. When we were talking I kept thinking of the last time I was a mission nanny. It was not good. I was supper homesick and the family I lived with wasn't the greatest. But in the end and now that I look back on it. I wouldn't change having that time in my life. I grew a lot in my faith, closer to my family, and I met some great people who help me get through it. So sometimes when what seems like the end of the world or just awful it could be Gods way of helping you grow.  It isn't going to be easy. And sometimes God seems so far away, but he's not. He is standing right there with you.

~Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will NEVER fail you or abandon you. ~ Deuteronomy 31:8

One month, seem longer!!!

The clocks have been changed, thanks to day light savings. I am not sure how I feel about day light savings, yes when we spring forward the days get longer and when we fall back we get an extra hour of sleep. But with that extra hour of sleep comes days that are short on day light.  So when it is really only 5 o'clock it feel like 10.  It is going to take some getting use to it getting dark earlier.

And speaking of time, today marks one month since I moved to Washington. It is crazy! I feel like I have been here way longer. It has been a great month. I think I have thing pretty much down here. I have met some great people. I can't wait to get to know everyone here more.

This week I started something. I am not going to say what, I am feeling very excited about it. It is going to take about 4 weeks to finish. I will tell y'all what it is when I finish. I have tried to do finish this thing before twice and failed. So I am bound and determined to finish it this time. I need to finish this, I do know that.

With it being November I have started thinking of Thanksgiving and Christmas. I always like taking November and being thankful for all the things that I have had happen to me over the year. So every day in November I think of one thing to be thankful for. It can be hard somedays to find something to be thankful for. But even if it is a little thing it is a thing to be thankful for.

Christmas shopping hasn't started for me yet, but thinking and looking has started!! It started snowing back home. I am a little sad and jealous that I am missing it. I am hoping that maybe it will at least snow once while I am here. It has started getting colder. It hasn't frozen here yet, well at least not that I know of. But I do have to have heater in my room at night to keep me warm. It won't get as cold as back home, but it will be a little chilly.

Well, that is pretty much all I have to say!!! Until next y'all!